Hey readers, how are you? And most importantly, how have you been. I am indeed apologetic for disappearing away from my blog. I know it has been quite some time. I have been busy but you and I both know, I am a lazy person and excuses are never the answer.
Anyway, there a reason why I suddenly decided to post on my blog, the inspiration....
Well you know, there are days when you feel in the pits; when everything becomes wrong, when all the things which used to make you smile, now make you wonder, “I used to smile at that?? What a waste!!”. I had one of those days yesterday. The cause, was some stuff going on at work and then there is stuff that makes you worry at home. It made me wonder about the feeling I was experiencing at that very moment. I thought...
This is not a time when everything is actually wrong. These conditions, these circumstances that surround me were there yesterday and the day before that; so why am I feeling so low today? I realized, that at any point in time, a person has a million things to be happy about.
Someone has rightly said, “if you thank the Lord for all that you have and that makes you smile, you shall not have time to complain about the bad things.”, and it was yesterday that it struck me, I always believed this to be true. But yesterday I realized, at every moment in life we have more things to frown upon that those which make us smile; but it is us who chose to look at the good parts and ignore the bad till they come directly in our faces. Yesterday was a day when I still had those good and bad things, but I decided to concentrate on the bad rather than the usual good. And boy did I think... I was literally depressed. After a certain point of time, I actually wanted to come out of that depression and start living the usual life, focussing on the good things, but I couldn’t.
I did realize, that one person stuck in the stage, where I was yesterday for two days could actually turn suicidal. I mean my depression was infectious, I actually scared a friend and made her think about all the shit that was going on in her life. That is when I realized how dangerous that state is. I also started to think about this, ‘thank god for all the stuff’ part. It seems that there may be some scam-like feeling to it. I think, it’s like a person is fooling you into thanking for the good stuff as he knows there a million of those and you would be too tired to start on the billion-long list of the bad things. You still have the billion bad things, but he cheated you into thinking about those million good things and at the end of the day, you’re happy!
I mean it is definitely good, but the feeling of being alone and thinking about all sorts of stuff made me discover a Hindi song which touched me. It has been in my top list for a couple of years now, but yesterday it took itself to new peaks. It perfectly fit the situation and also provided a way out. The song is ‘Tanha Dil by ‘Shaan’. He is a beautiful singer and has sung a zillion good, ahem, great songs. But this one is really apt. It points out, you started alone, stopped at towns in your way, met people made friends, then you had to move on, and there you are alone again. But soon enough you see another town and that phase of life is back again. It also shows you that the destination of the path you are travelling upon, is something you have to reach alone; so bro, do not get distracted.
I was really in the pits yesterday, but one thing is for sure, like the scam I mentioned, this also brought some good. ;)
I actually realized on how wasteful I was and how much of my life I have wasted. So it got me working again. And that is the reason, I am back on my blog.
True story- ;)
